Pins and needles not the best diet

I know the saying is walking on pins and needles, but my stomach is so upset these days I feel like its all I’ve eaten.
He’s got 8 more days to respond….

He’s wonderful

I’m not quite sure how it happened, but I’m so happy it did.
When I first met Brian I thought him a nice intelligent person. And over the next few months, my esteem for him only grew and grew, but I never thought he’d be interested in me…
And yet, here we are, moved in together, and so so happy!
And Emma is so happy, she loves him, and he loves her. Parenting with a partner who loves and respects and cares is a new thing to me. I like it. I love it.
And tonight, she’ll be home with us, where she belongs.. I can’t wait for this day to be over so I can go and get her.
Its hard, when she’s been away from us for a weekend, because she doesn’t have the same rules at Jeff’s house. I’m not really sure that they have any, to be honest. And all she does is watch tv… And at our house we canceled satellite… But she’s writing her own name, and so close to reading, and I don’t think that is because of the suite life of Zack and Cody and whatever other shows she’s watching at Jeff’s house. It must be odd for her to go to a house where please and thank you are not expected. She’ll be hungry, exhausted, and needing her hair brushed, but she’ll be ours, all ours … home where she belongs.

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We went camping this weekend, and had a mostly lovely time. It rained all Sunday, so I’m not quite sure I’m all the way dry.

Interesting lessons were learned this weekend- the most important one being “Just because I like you doesn’t mean I’m going to like your friends”.
Someone invited a friend of a friend, who proceeded to drink everyone else’s alcohol, eat everyone Else’s food, and leave their children to run and be supervised by everyone else. I took an entire bag of marshmallows up, and Emma ate 3. I didn’t get to bring any home. I wouldn’t have cared, you see, if they had contributed anything to the evening. And I certainly don’t mind those poor kids eating my marshmallows, not at all. I just thought those parents were RUDE RUDE RUDE. It wasn’t a lack of money, either. Both sets of parents had new cars, and REALLY new tent trailers. And they went up to the lodge to sing karaoke and came stumbling back to the campsite at 2 in the morning, falling down drunk (and waking ME up). I guess the one guy actually DID get a concussion. He deserved it. And M & M, the “hosts” of the weekend, are just furious. One guy (Tony) was roaring drunk the entire time, and left his step son to fend for himself. And he’d tell anyone who was in hearing distance what a rotten kid he was. Well, that sweet little 7 year old was a kid I’d take any day. Tony is no longer invited….
So if you subtract those moments when strangers were being offensive, you had a great weekend

We moved in together

So So tired

can I just sleep please?

My cell phone is my friend

I love my new cell phone. I adore it, really. Le Boyfriend got tired of all the dropped calls, missed texts. I was just on a pay by month unlimited plan… Well, I am now a proud Cingular customer. That’s right, I made the commitment. Except I didn’t. Brian just added me to his plan. Its a FAMILY plan. LOL. So I guess you could say, he made the commitment…Really its more economical; only about $30 a month for each of us.

Are we living together, you ask? ….Well, all of his clothes are here…. He hasn’t slept at his house in over a month…. Does that count?

Its very different parenting with a partner. Its very nice to have help. Some days I’m just so tired, I might be inclined to let things slide, and that’s when Brian steps up and says “Emma mind your mom”, or “honey, lighten up”… or whatever I need.
He taught her to put Ketchup on her eggs, and how to gargle. He’s also been working with me to teach her how to read
She’s almost there!

She’s called Brian dad a couple of times… We don’t encourage it, but we’ve also stopped correcting her. It just breaks Brian’s heart, because he loves her so much. And we don’t tell her when Jeff says he’s going to pick her up, because in the last two months that’s happened once
Its just better that she not be disappointed, I think. Brian used to be upset when Jeff would cancel at the last minute, but now he’s at the point when even if it means changing our plans he would rather have her with us. He still gets pissed at Jeff… But Emma comes home tired, grumpy, dirty and disobedient from her father’s house.

Its so wonderful being with a partner I RESPECT! He keeps his promises and commitments to both Emma and I. Its been lovely to watch their relationship grow and evolve. He spends time with her, playing ball, drawing chalk pictures, reading, carting her around on his back… And he makes her obey the rules, and will discipline her if he needs to. But even then he is loving.

I love this picture of them. She had a smug smile of contentment on her little face when I took this, and his look to me is one of contentment and protection. I think she feels the same safety and joy in his presence that I do.

today i’m missing a friend

but some things just can’t be fixed.